Asleep to Life
Asleep to my life was my sweet spot or should I say my “sleep spot”. Looking back I can see clearly - it was all I knew, and it felt “safe”. I was soooo asleep to my life that I naively trusted others for everything. I trusted others to: tell me what I liked, tell me what I wanted, tell me what I needed, tell me what to believe, tell me when to speak and what to say, tell me what I deserved, and even tell me what to think. I was living dead and numb. And I was living an “UNEXPRESSED LIFE”!
I had no clue who I was, what I loved, nor what I was passionate about. My light was extinguished. My heart locked down. And I played it safe and silence lurked.
I was living a life without ME in it.
And then pain crashed in. Death and grief destroyed my facade. Anger and betrayal shook my being, and I began to feel. And I felt it all - good - bad - and ugly for the first time. Pain stripped off my mask. Pain fractured my silence. Pain woke up the sleeping girl within. And through this pain I allowed my heart to slowly beat….. again and again and again. I allowed the energy of my anger, grief, and sadness to pull me into a new healing journey of awakening, unwinding, owning, rising, and embracing the real powerful brilliant me.
BUT I HAD TO CHOOSE THE AWAKENING! I HAD TO CHOOSE THE RISING… AND I DID!
I CHOOSE TO:
EMBRACE THE PAIN.
TURN INWARD.
RECEIVE GRACE.
UNWIND.
UNLEARN.
RELEARN.
UNCOVER.
DISCOVER.
ACCEPT MYSELF.
TAKE OWNERSHIP OF MY BRILLIANCE.
ASK FOR WHAT I WANTED.
USE MY VOICE.
TAKE BOLD ACTION.
EMBRACE MY WORTHINESS.
RISE UP IN MY POWER.
LOVE MYSELF ---- ALL OF ME.
AND SHINE MY LIGHT.
I am made in the image of My Creator. His light is inside of me.
And I am continuing to wake up, show up, and rise up! And I am making no apologies.
And now - here I am - (on this beautiful journey) - more alive, more on fire, and more wildly free than ever. I am taking bold confident action. I am rising up in my God-given power and gifts; I am no longer self-sabotaging and procrastinating nor hiding in the corner diminishing my light. I am AWAKE, LIVING MY PASSION, AND SHINING MY LIGHT.
And now - here you are - isolated and away from any sense of normalcy. And it is just you! And many of the ways you hide are no longer available. Many of the ways you stay busy enough to not “feel” have come to a halt. You have no place to run from your emotions and silence them down. You are home with your family and you are home with ALL OF YOU. And you also have a choice.
So my questions to you are:
Are you ready to wake up?
Are you tired of procrastinating?
Are you ready to silence the self-critic?
Are you tired of living your life without you in it?
YOU HAVE A CHOICE.
And in the middle of all the uncertainty you can make a certain choice. And that choice is choosing you.
TODAY, an opportunity awaits you. Are you ready to go inward, re-access, and see the gold-- see the beauty you behold? Are you ready to wake up the sleeping warrior woman?
You have before you some “extra time”, maybe - aka- an opportunity to WAKE UP and do some powerful inner work (with a ton of beautiful grace). And if not now, then when?
It’s time, beautiful one, as a woman to STOP HIDING IN A CORNER DIMINISHING YOUR LIGHT! It is time to wake up.
